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  1. 01

    Creative depression

    Wow, I just realised the last time I wrote was on the 11th of June.  Strange how time has flown by, infact, this year is on a marathon, yo!

    Anywhoo, I don't fully understand this phenomena:

    everytime I drop a new website (in this case STUDIO83) I get depressed.  I don't mean depressed like Kurt Kobain, but I feel drained, tired, even though I haven't done anything after the launch.

    alas, that is where I am --- and I need to find energy to work another project, pronto (due end of week).

    I am hoping after this project --- I'll ge time to drop a new design to this here (blog?).

    and I also want to go on a marathon of just posting new stuff as I go along, without thought --- I think too much.

    But, here is what is disturbing me, two people in a space of 1 hour who were not in the same space, said this, about me:

    you are predictable.

    I don't quite like that --- but I guess its true, at least of how I am percieved.  We have to work on that, a man my age (and thats another thing disturbing me) cannot be predictable.

    in 8 years I'll be 40 years old.

    I am not happy with that at all.

  2. 02

    the heat

    oh mother of --- its mother --- hot.  I can't work smoothly, mouse all sticky (and no! I'm not going through porn).  I can't sleep, can't open the windows --- them thugs jacked my ish whilst a window was open and I was sleeping. Not cool.

    I am re-designing GUSTO --- I like what it looks like now, but it's only form and not functional.   So, I'm working on a newer interface --- trust me, it will make sense then.

    I know I write mostly of the work I do, but hey, what can I say, it's my soon to be bread and butter.  I am also thinking of re-doing this journal/book --- this look is tired.

    I'm listening to some CD somebody told me it's dope, dam it, this shit is wack --- I don't like house music with 'piano' strings on it, couple with a lot of melodic-singing --- not inspiring.  I find myself getting frustrated for no reason when the music playing is kak.

    Alas, switching to my 'dope' playlist.

    Dam, I hope I finish GUSTO by end of the week, I don't think I'll have the time to do it after that.  Mr S83 approved the design for his magazine, it should launch on Monday/Tuesday, it will, it should, it might.

    After them (S83 + GUSTO) I dive into 75, on the 19th of April it will be turning 1 year old --- and dam, I got news for ya on 75 --- alas, we wait till it's re-designed (I've finished the re-development though).

    Till tomorrow, assuming I sleep.

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