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  1. 01

    A few days later

    So, it's been a week since moving back to moms house.

    Wait, I actually have nothing to say about that -- but there is this thing, that is missing, in this life of mine, but it could be because I sense a change in the clouds, or is that a tea cup.

    You know that thing that fortune tellers do, with tea leaves in a tea cup --- I sense something like that.

    But, there is a residual feeling/emotion lingering within my thoughts, I am not sure what it is, but I sense it --- maybe it has something to do with a girl (or the lack thereof) we are not sure.

    This weekend was good, very good.  We celebrated life, fully, and we met a girl.

    Something about meeting a girl is beautiful.

    Yes, that's it --- it's all about a girl.

  2. 02

    in the begining

    So, so, so, so, so so.

    I am asking myself, how does a 'relationship' start out --- I mean the romantic (and/or sexual) starts?  What sparks it, what create it, when does it begin to be a relationship.

    I remember a time, when I was 'with' a Muse --- we never really had an anniversary date (we had a whole month, september, I think) --- we were not sure of which date we 'actually' started being, 'together'.

    What marks that, 'starting point'?

    a kiss? sex? intimate 'sensual' moments? a date? first time you met?

    Well, I don't know --- that's what I'm trying to understand,

    at what point can you say you are with someone?

    But, of all things I know about 'intimacy/relationships' is that once you have kissed that person, it's on --- whatever it is that is going on.

    *goes back to la'la land.

    ps: I know nothing of matters of the heart.

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