I read a few pages on a book whilst at CNA (good product, bad company) looking for another book (Starting Your Own Business in South Africa) I had owned before, but lost, the words read (paraphrased):
Why is it that somebody else less talented, less gifted, putting less effort and energy can achieve (badly) what you want to do?
What the book was about, was knowing when to quit. It is evident that most people would continually keep saying to you:
be strong, have patience, stay the course, have faith, work harder, work smarter, be driven, to achieve a goal
What they don't know is, I've been doing that since I came back from exile, 19th of December 1991.
I think it's time I quit. I think I have misplaced my passion and drive, the last time I was very passionate about something (excluding relationships) was when I was teaching and when I was being taught, when I was scholar.
Since Monday morning, I have been resigned. In simple terms I have given up, I am no longer pursuing anything, anything whatsoever.
So, in short,
all dreams, ambitions, goals, plans, life and anything that requires me to do something has been dropped,
until that day I can honestly answer this simple question:
What is the point of it all?
The jury is out.
giving up is part of the journey. You can give up now - but only your heart will determine if you'll give up forever.
Nov 2007
For as long as you'll be breathing after your decision then I believe that you're not giving up...
All I see is a wise man 'changing' directions.
(But I don't think God can let you be very good at what you do for no reason at all)
*wan lav!
Nov 2007
I don't know, maybe I'm one of those people gusto was talking about in his post...mara I just don't believe things - fulfilling your destiny should be THAT difficult. Ofcourse THAT is relative.
I work hard. I work passionately. But there is little effort required.
Because it is, what it is - what it is supposed to be.
I find that at times we chase other people's dreams for us. What other people want for us - and we confuse it with what we think we want.
All I IS saying is, if its too hard - it probably ain't 'IT'.
And that doesn't mean anything at all actually. Every path has a part to play - nothings ever wasted. And I think you are tired because you want to be really. And once you get over that...if you want to get over it...well then you'll be back on the saddle soon enough. You are in control a kere.
Nov 2007