Have you seen that tv series called, Taken? There was a boy who had the ability to make you realise all your dreams and fears at one take, one moment.
I am slowly, regaining the art of meditation, it's not easy, the absolute desire to reach that moment of clear thought, that are not biased, driven by desire, to have thought that is pure, without justification for existence is not easy.
Why meditation? You know when Master Yoda says,
Be mindful of your thoughts.
That is what meditation is to me. To be aware of a thought, to understand why that thought exists, not why you think you should think it, if that makes sense.
I am of the school of thought that, "every thought we have, is derived from our own ego, but we never question the thought, we accept to be."
But, my meditation has taken a different turn that I had not anticipated, everytime I meditate well for the past 3 days or so, I seem to have a single overriding theme,
My fears
I am re-living (in thought) all my fears and honestly accepting that, yes, there are things I fear. I manage to deal with one two days ago and that fear, was the fear of loosing my muse.
I am now content that, I have lost her and I will be okay. It was a hard pill to swallow, my mind has fantasied about being with her, again, but such is not the reality of this life.
But, then again, I am not done meditating. I would truly enjoy it if my meditation was to focus on something as good as, my dreams, but it appears my mind is more focused on the fears that derail my dreams.
Fear it is, till the next thought.